I had another post for today..
but this is on my heart.
Wishing I could be in atlanta with everyone in the courtroom.
It’s hard being so far away.
I want to hug everyone..just be there strong together.
not feeling strong today on my own. crying at each update text my sister sends.
We love and miss you Shannon..Today I just feel so deeply everything that we felt since the day we lost you. you will forever be in our hearts. may we love like you loved..and have faith and forgiveness like you did.
You will forever be my best friend..my guardian angel.
You will forever be my best friend..my guardian angel.
praying for healing..peace forgiveness and faith.
I don’t know what to feel today.. but trying to not feel hate.
One day I will be able to think back on shannon and not cry but be happy..but today i’m not feeling that strong. I don’t even want to believe that I’m writing this about my best friend.. it’s too sad. I find myself shaking my head “no” when I think about how she is gone..I know everything in my heart of how I should “deal” with this..but my heart is just so broken today. I just put sienna down for her nap…and as I was standing and swaying sienna back and forth.. singing twinkle twinkle..I just started crying as I sang..I’m so sad for Shannon’s babies. And that Shannon could not hold them one more time.
Emma, you usually were the star of our conversations.. whenever i talked to your mommy it was about you and my sophia and how much we loved you sweeties! She will always be your guardian angel..loving you from above. I love you too. and I’ll always be here for you.. with photos and videos and letters.. I will give them all to you..so you can see just how amazing your mommy was.
But In my heart I know that I am closer..we are all closer..to shannon up in Heaven. My mom just reminded me of that on the phone. I can talk to her whenever I want. She can work little miracles for us from above. She will be felt in the lives of her children..She has already touched so many lives and they will be able to see the amazing person that their mother was by the legacy she has left behind.
Dear Jesus, please give me peace..help me to remember the joyful beautiful person that shannon was..and not how she was cruelly taken from us. Bring peace to my heart and all of those who mourn her. Give us strength to forgive..help us to trust in You..
Shannon’s dad recently sent me a message..and I told him how it was EXACTLY what I needed to hear at the time. I think that a lot of people need to hear this too..so I don’t think he would mind if I shared.
“Natalie, seek Christ in the Eucharist for your healing; go to Adoration more often. Kneel in front of our Blessed Mother and ask her to hold you up. I feel your pain of this; I know how horrible it feels to think of how she died. I feel it every second of every day. It is the worst. But …. we must stay healed for our families. The Holy Spirit puts peace in us to help us heal. Pray and listen. It will happen. It doesn’t mean you loved Shannon less to be in peace and less pain. It means you know her soul is secured in heaven; her main goal of this world. The pain we feel is ….well …. selfish at times, as it is what we wanted for ourselves with her, to witness the life and love that we loved to see from her. It is the greatest loss of all. Yet, her love is still here with us in each of us through the connected love of Jesus. The best we can do now is emulate what she did to emulate Christ’s love to everyone. I love you for being so much for her in her life. She loved and admired you like the sister she didn’t have.”
please lift up prayers for all of us during this hard day. praying for peace in our hearts, strength to forgive and an increase in faith and hope.
If you would like to read details from
the court room today you can read this article.
very hard to read..
but I needed to know what was said.
To read all posts related to Shannon you can click here.
If you would like to read details from
the court room today you can read this article.
very hard to read..
but I needed to know what was said.
To read all posts related to Shannon you can click here.
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Please Pray for peace in our world
and for all those affected by Domestic Violence.
Megan
July 13, 2011 at 1:48 pmI just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you today, and the rest of Shannon’s friends and family. I pray you all will find peace in your hearts and strength to get you through this. *hugs*
Rhianna
July 13, 2011 at 2:01 pmMy family is praying for Shannon’s family as well as yours. May you all find peace and strength. I too have lost a best friend and it is hard. Over time you will see that she is there with you everyday. Love to you all.
Stephanie
July 13, 2011 at 2:07 pmNatalie,
Again, your post brings tears to my eyes – for many reasons. I can’t fathom how much pain you and Shannon’s loved ones must be in. Being a mother to a 2 year old, my heart absolutely BREAKS for her children. However, what her dad wrote you is absolutely awesome and inspiring. If we can all only learn to do this — and also love as you and others have described Shannon did and continues to do.
I hope your days get easier and you continue to heal. Know that you are doing SO MUCH GOOD in this world by just being the mommy you are and sharing this story with the world. Bless you!
PaperCourt
July 13, 2011 at 2:43 pmI’m so sorry, Natalie! I’m so sorry for her children and all those who loved her. What a heartbreaking story!
Jenny
July 13, 2011 at 3:48 pmPraying for your healing and for the repose of her beautiful soul – such a sad, hard thing for you all. Her children have a mighty intercessor in Heaven.
Cheryl E.
July 13, 2011 at 4:09 pmAgain, you amaze me. You and Shannon’s family have been in my thoughts today. And remember that God is his real Judge. Shannon is smiling down on you :) and rejoicing about what a great friend she has.
Laura
July 13, 2011 at 6:35 pmNatalie,
I know how you feel with not being able to be there. It is times like today I wished I lived there more than ever. I wanted to be in the court room with everyone and be able to support them and support Shannon. As I got updates throughout the day, I had to distance myself from the information so as not to get upset again (I was at school). I was so anxious, concentration on anything else was impossible. I too find myself shaking my head in disbelief when I sit down to connect the dots. It is the hardest time in any of our lives. My prayers go to you for comfort and I hope you find relief from the pain by turning to God and the love Shannon had for you.
Jennifer
July 13, 2011 at 8:50 pmI happened to find your blog today and was absolutely stunned and deeply saddened by your post. I have spent the last hour searching for information about Shannon and have not stopped praying for all of you who loved her so. I cannot believe that such a terrible, senseless thing could happen to such a beautiful, obviously wonderful human being. My heart goes out to her two beautiful children and her entire family and friends. Please know that so many people are praying for her and for you. God bless you all. Hugs from a stranger.