Mean Mommy

By saturday afternoon I had hit a wall.
I had had one of those weeks that I was just praying by 9 am that I would
be able to survive till lunch, let alone bed time.
We had throwing up kids.
We had nocturnal kids.
We had “You get to do whatever you want,
I wish I was a mommy so I could do whatever I wanted.”
I felt like I spent way too much of my time doing time outs,
walking back a runaway to time out… and repeating.
Lots of “No you cannot have cheese puffs it’s 8 in the morning”
“Don’t pinch your sister.”
“Indoor voices please!”
“do not sit on your brother”
“No, she didn’t have more snack than you.”
“no you cannot get a toy you are holding an icee, be grateful”
By saturday all the happy fun times of the week were overshadowed by the craziness and non stop negativity I felt! Being in charge is hard. Being a kid is hard.
We are very much into the “you’re a mean mommy” phase and I’m not loving it.
I needed to do something to shake off getting overwhelmed.
I came home from running a quick return errand and said let’s go to the farm!
I was getting too focused on the hard parts of being a mom!
We needed to spend some family time together and even though there were plenty of moments where I had to say “no” or “be nice”….
there were way more smiles… and I needed that!
I needed a boost of happy time and we got it.

“best…day..ever!”  – kids.
The happiness on their painted faces…was contagious.

Anyone else in the same boat with getting worn down
with the discipline part of motherhood?
Hang in there mama…you aren’t alone… and it’s worth it.
These sweet babes are so worth it!
Go have some fun with your munchkins and soak them up!

Tonight when I tucked sophia into bed..she peeked out at me from her covers, tucked up around her face, and said, “Mom, I love your blog. I’m gonna dream about my blog.”
Sienna put on a dance show for us today and cracked up at how funny she was.
Of course she was wearing her bathing suit and holding a bag full of
curated treasures she picked from around the house.
Micah let me hold him like a baby tonight when I put him to bed…he giggled when I gave him eskimo kisses on his nose. And when I put him down in bed he grabbed his stuffed elephant and snuggled up with it.

Sometimes they can just drive me bonkers and I don’t know if I’m doing enough or doing it right, but then other times…it just all comes together and I’m given the grace to see that as long as I keep on being there for them, loving them, even when they don’t love how I do it…it’s going to be alright. I have to remember that they are a gift. That God gave them to me and that they are actually His. So soaking up this time with them and trying my best to be a good mommy for them…even when it’s hard!

Coming soon.. Sophia’s blog. ;)